10 July 2015

I Made an Adult Decision

In my May Ruminations post, I eluded to a big announcement that I was going spill over the next couple of weeks and I haven't actually got around to announcing the thing I was thinking about then. But things have also changed now and for some reason I want to share it, one night when I couldn't sleep I was like that would make for a great blog post. So I followed through on sleep-deprived, just-worked-an-almost-12-hour-shift Fiona and here it is:


The announcement I was going to give everyone was that I have a new job. If you follow me on Twitter, you'll be like, YAS I know this already but there is actually a lot more to it and it resulted in me actually having to make an actual decision as an adult.

So, let's start at the beginning. At the start of the year I was kept on from my Christmas job as a bookseller and got to be with the books. It's amazing, I talk about Game of Thrones and zombies like all the time and I love it. Except the only problem I had (well, one big problem with lots of little unimportant things I'd moan about too) was that it was only a 10 hour contract and even though most of the time I got more than 10 hours it wasn't stable enough to consider when trying to do all the next things I want (move out of my parents and become a fabulous self-sufficient adult), you know, money based things. So, I started looking for other jobs which I think is the worst (more about that here). However, I got called up for an interview for a full time job with a big British airline, and when I talked to the people there this job seemed to have amazing perks and was one of those jobs that people would stay in. Then I got an e-mail to say I was successful which I didn't expect at all, I thought I totally bombed the interview. After I got offered a new job, which I was psyched about and was going to go for, I got told that I can get full time hours as a bookseller at a new store.

It's literally like waiting for buses. I've been looking for a full time job since, what, February 2014 then all of sudden I'm in high demand. I didn't have any idea what to do. Go for a new job on the phones as a sales agent (I've worked on phones before and I'm not thrilled about it) which has great money and perks, but I'd get late hours ending at 10pm and potentially working Christmas day and I have no idea if I'll even like this job, I've never done it before and it's risky to put all my eggs in one basket when I might not have even pass the 6 week training. Or stay at a job I actually like and know in an industry I want to work in but for less money, like a lot less money because the other job there was bonuses and commission etc etc. Plus, I'd told all my family, and then some, about this new job and people seemed impressed, and celebrations were had, and I spent money like I was already earning it but the thought of something new is so scary.

I thought about writing a post or a tweet or anything because this was the hardest decision. It essentially boiled down to doing something I actually want to do OR working to make the big bucks and getting some time to travel. In the end, I've decided to stay on as a bookseller because books. It helps that I absolutely love my new store and in my new role I get more say about things but my biggest fear was I'd go to this new job and hate it, or suck at it, and not be able to go back to bookselling, and if I did I wouldn't go back to a full time contract - they're bloody gold dust.

I actually don't know how to round this kind of post off, I just wanted to write down this little ordeal that occupied my mind for a good two weeks. It's also an announcement that will serve as an excuse if my blog starts to dwindle out, but so far I've been able to cope. 

14 comments:

  1. Life's about being where you're happy - and I can fully understand you wanting to be around books, like, forevs. Congrats ladychops!

    Rhi xo

    Www.chapterandcircle.co.uk

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    1. Thank you! The books were such a big factor, I love working with them :3

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  2. SAME. Except not really. I interviewed for a fellowship in May, came out of the group interview and said, "If the job is anything like that I don't think I can do it", somehow got through to interviews, reckoned I should probably still stay in the running for it because, you know, JOBS, got through to the next round, somehow managed to get the actual place, accepted it, told everyone, spent two weeks crying and then ultimately turned it down because the whole thing was stressing me out so much and I'd been regretting even continuing past the assessment round and happiness definitely needs to come before money imo. I'm waiting for the next bus to turn up now but HeY hopefully that'll be soon? I felt like a bit of an idiot having got this 'prestigious' place and then being too much of a baby to take it up but it's good to know I'm not the only one having second thoughts and ultimately deciding against taking on roles that you feel really iffy about!!! Are you at MetroCentre now? I'm gonna come heckle you and drink coffee :') xx

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    1. There is so much pressure, everyone was like WOW that's an awesome job and I was like BUT WHAT F ITS AWFUL, I genuinely didn't think I'd get it and when I did I was the same, regretting it a little just because it's not really what I want to do :/ but yeah, you'll be fine! Another his will come! And I'm at metro centre now YAS :) I don't see sunlight but I will be able to make the coffee ;)

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  3. That sounds like an immense amount of decision making. Sounds to me like you made a great choice, congrats xxx

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    1. It was so hard because each side had something I wanted, hopefully I made the right choice! The good thing is I don't know if the other job was all that amazing whereas if I had changed from my current job and hated it I would have regretted it I think

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  4. I think you made a good decision! If you are happy in the job you have, even if it's not the most glamorous or big money making, then it's worth it to keep. I'm facing a similar decision in the next couple years. Once my daughter is in school, I'll go back to working...and I have no idea where to begin!

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    1. I think that's what counts :) I'm much happier and it's still more than I was on so :) good luck with it, I'm sure you'll find something amazing you want to do <3

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  5. Congrats! Sometimes you have to do what makes you happy instead of what might fill your wallet! Happiness is important!

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    1. Definitely! I'm so happy with my new role as well, I feel like I lucked out

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  6. So happy for you! In the long run I think it's SO much better to stick with a job you love.

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    1. I agree! It's weird, I normally go around with the mentality of money is just money and you can just earn it back sort of thing (YOLO but with a little more foresight) and I think it's just my current situation that pressured me to make the big bucks. Whatever, it wouldn't have been all too much more realistically :) thank you!

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  7. Congrats Fiona! All that's important is that you are happy with what you are doing! :)

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    1. Many thanks :3 I'm very happy now so I'm pretty happy with my decision

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